Oh, Mary, I’m glad for the mention, but gladder still that your kindred spirit is traversing the digital space through your words. It’s difficult to feel so much--I get that completely! Go into hermit status when you need to.
So glad to be catching up on my reading during the early morning hours while the thunderstorm rolls though outside and my husband slumbers. Tis the best soundtrack for a Mary McKnight Musing!
Holly-what a lovely post to wake to-I am up early too, catching up on my reading as well. I had a night of deep dreaming, processing real-life traumas in the weirdness of dreams. I needed some thing to bring me back into real time, and reading your post here, did just that. Thank you. And, thank you for the "go into hermit status when you need to". I needed that too. Oh dear, this is sounding very "needy". Time for me to "Release and Gather".
Maria, thank you! This means so much. One of my favorite memories from teaching, was when you had a group come into my Kindergarten class and do "Reader's Theater". My students were so inspired that they started doing this at Centers. Real, authentic learning. Beautiful.
Ahhh....Chapter 2...I still have "teacher dreams" and miss the Chapter 1 of my life. It was such a HUGE part of me (you know how that is-I am preaching to the choir). Learning to be in the "what is" has to have been the hardest lesson I have ever had to learn. Some days I'm better at it than others.
I totally get this and feel the same way. I love when people comment or even just click the heart on my posts but it’s usually people other than my real life friends who have never really told me one way or another if they see or read my stuff. It’s weird. And yes, a bit hurtful.
Susi, you are one of we "Tender Hearts" and from the day we met in your new, very bare (no windows) Kindergarten classroom, oh so many years ago, I just liked you. I knew, that the up and coming kindrers were in such good hands and heart. And now, the Pre-K kiddos have you! This makes me so very happy. I miss the joys of children-seeing things through their eyes. (I do not miss the more difficult parts-ha/ha) Thank you for reading and sharing your heart.
I guess I didn't realize you were an empath before now. I guess that makes sense. And yes, quite frankly, being kept at arm's length has hurt my feelings (if you want to know).
But we're all on our own journey and I'm glad you are finding your way.
Oh, I keep things close to the vest-always have. I think for so many years, I just thought I was "too sensitive". Age and difficult times of late have revealed the "empath" and as my therapist says (and is right), "The Wounded Healer". Each being ourselves does inadvertently hurt others and I am so very sorry that I have hurt you. It never was, and never would be my intent.
Thank you, Cousin! The "audition" will be sometime in January. It reminds me of John Lennon saying at some point on the "Let it Be" album "I'd like to thank the group and myself and I hope we passed the audition".
I cannot watch horror films because I feel all of the treachery and fright! My husband laughs and says it’s only a film, the blood isn’t real, and the director told the actors what to do. While I know this, I still can’t watch these films, I feel the fright right through to my inner core. I’m like that for many dramas too!
I decided long ago to trace my family roots as far back as I could go; to find out who I am through their lives—joy, pain, and sorrow. I still work full time as an ADR practitioner and support my daughter through college and my son through his life journey. Each of these takes my whole being, but I needed something for myself.
My plate is full for sure, but all of these parts are important and I can’t let them go. While I am struggling to keep my head above the water, I know in my heart that things will even themselves out eventually to a point where I can breathe.
Yes, we each need something for "self". Your research into your ancestors is so wonderful...to learn their names, say their names, and share what you've learned (I love learning it!).
It makes me NUTS when someone says, "It's only a movie". It's only a movie to them, but not to us! Thank you, Jocelind for your story and for writing it here.
Thank you, Mindy, Mindy. I love yours too! It makes life easier, doesn't it? I do so appreciate you reading my work-you were supportive in my Chapter 1 (Teaching) and now my Chapter 2 (writing)
Oh, Mary, I’m glad for the mention, but gladder still that your kindred spirit is traversing the digital space through your words. It’s difficult to feel so much--I get that completely! Go into hermit status when you need to.
So glad to be catching up on my reading during the early morning hours while the thunderstorm rolls though outside and my husband slumbers. Tis the best soundtrack for a Mary McKnight Musing!
Holly-what a lovely post to wake to-I am up early too, catching up on my reading as well. I had a night of deep dreaming, processing real-life traumas in the weirdness of dreams. I needed some thing to bring me back into real time, and reading your post here, did just that. Thank you. And, thank you for the "go into hermit status when you need to". I needed that too. Oh dear, this is sounding very "needy". Time for me to "Release and Gather".
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Great pic!
Thanks, Ape!
I love reading your writing! You are a great storyteller and truth-teller!
Maria, thank you! This means so much. One of my favorite memories from teaching, was when you had a group come into my Kindergarten class and do "Reader's Theater". My students were so inspired that they started doing this at Centers. Real, authentic learning. Beautiful.
I’m glad you’ve found your chapter 2. I’m still working on mine as I have no idea what I want to do when I grow up! I’ll keep searching.
Ahhh....Chapter 2...I still have "teacher dreams" and miss the Chapter 1 of my life. It was such a HUGE part of me (you know how that is-I am preaching to the choir). Learning to be in the "what is" has to have been the hardest lesson I have ever had to learn. Some days I'm better at it than others.
I totally get this and feel the same way. I love when people comment or even just click the heart on my posts but it’s usually people other than my real life friends who have never really told me one way or another if they see or read my stuff. It’s weird. And yes, a bit hurtful.
Susi, you are one of we "Tender Hearts" and from the day we met in your new, very bare (no windows) Kindergarten classroom, oh so many years ago, I just liked you. I knew, that the up and coming kindrers were in such good hands and heart. And now, the Pre-K kiddos have you! This makes me so very happy. I miss the joys of children-seeing things through their eyes. (I do not miss the more difficult parts-ha/ha) Thank you for reading and sharing your heart.
I guess I didn't realize you were an empath before now. I guess that makes sense. And yes, quite frankly, being kept at arm's length has hurt my feelings (if you want to know).
But we're all on our own journey and I'm glad you are finding your way.
Keep it up.
That's a fabulous picture, BTW.
Oh, I keep things close to the vest-always have. I think for so many years, I just thought I was "too sensitive". Age and difficult times of late have revealed the "empath" and as my therapist says (and is right), "The Wounded Healer". Each being ourselves does inadvertently hurt others and I am so very sorry that I have hurt you. It never was, and never would be my intent.
Thanks for your words and insight! Good luck with the "audition "
Thank you, Cousin! The "audition" will be sometime in January. It reminds me of John Lennon saying at some point on the "Let it Be" album "I'd like to thank the group and myself and I hope we passed the audition".
I cannot watch horror films because I feel all of the treachery and fright! My husband laughs and says it’s only a film, the blood isn’t real, and the director told the actors what to do. While I know this, I still can’t watch these films, I feel the fright right through to my inner core. I’m like that for many dramas too!
I decided long ago to trace my family roots as far back as I could go; to find out who I am through their lives—joy, pain, and sorrow. I still work full time as an ADR practitioner and support my daughter through college and my son through his life journey. Each of these takes my whole being, but I needed something for myself.
My plate is full for sure, but all of these parts are important and I can’t let them go. While I am struggling to keep my head above the water, I know in my heart that things will even themselves out eventually to a point where I can breathe.
Yes, we each need something for "self". Your research into your ancestors is so wonderful...to learn their names, say their names, and share what you've learned (I love learning it!).
It makes me NUTS when someone says, "It's only a movie". It's only a movie to them, but not to us! Thank you, Jocelind for your story and for writing it here.
I always love your honesty Mary! It is what keeps me reading :)
Thank you, Mindy, Mindy. I love yours too! It makes life easier, doesn't it? I do so appreciate you reading my work-you were supportive in my Chapter 1 (Teaching) and now my Chapter 2 (writing)
Frequent reader, infrequent commenter. 😀 just want you to know that I’m listening! ❤️