The Way We Say "You're Not Enough"
Moving Beyond That
“You used to be ‘this way’ and now you are ‘that way.’”
If I am not evolving as I age, what the hell am I doing? I do not equate evolving with “changing.”
Evolving, to me, means that I am enhancing previously quelled parts of myself that I no longer deny or hold back. Those parts add to my life and I believe add to the world at large.
My evolution is difficult on those closest to me as the things I used to put up with to keep the peace, are no longer an option. What about my peace?
No one will give me internal peace. It is only through this personal evolution, awareness and then action that I will achieve that which used to feel/ tobe elusive.
The Evolution Revolution. I am ‘enough.’ The curious thing to me is, that I always have been. We all go through life in stages, some short and some long. However, when I was in those stages, what I felt and how I acted was appropriate for my time. In looking back, it feels otherwise. But who am I to look back and judge myself and my actions with the brain and the sum experiences of a 62-year old?
Reflective thinking is very rewarding for me internally. It provides perspective and a timeline of my life. Too much time doing so, means it is time for me to move on and remove myself from the quagmire. Not enough time doing so, means denial and stagnancy. It is a delicate balance.
Is it better to be liked or to be respected? Ideally, I want both, but that does not always happen. In those situations, being respected far outweighs being liked. It used to be the opposite for me.
Where are you in your personal evolution? Tell me a story below. Share your evolution instead of commenting about mine. It’s far more interesting to increase the story rather than perseverate on my experience. What is yours? Thank you for reading and if you take the time to share, thank you for that too.
It would seem that my evolution takes two steps forward and a half step back. Maybe I could say I have many starts and stops. Right now I’m on the “start” side of things. I’ve come to realize that I can’t do everything for everybody and still have something left for me. I’m just trying to figure out how to make that alright in my head--the guilt I mean. It is getting better, though. I am comforted knowing that things don’t fall apart if I don’t/can’t get to them! I’ve also come to realize that there is no “final” point in my life where all is figured out and that there isn’t a “perfect” time in my life. I am embracing the art of finding a slice of joy, laughter, peace in difficult times.
It's true if your honest about it. No one can give u inner peace..